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Because Holy Feels Scary

So I’m convinced that God is all about our holiness rather than our happiness.  And for me that feels scary.  Because of all the times that He uses brokenness to teach me and make me more like Him.  Because I really, really like non-brokenness.  And comfortable.  And happy.

But I forgot that God’s design for me, no matter what hard stuff that might take me through, and His very presence, arewaaaay better that my happiest happy.  So He reminded me.

Psalm 84:1-2, 4-5, 10-12  NIV

     How lovely is your dwelling place,
   LORD Almighty!
2 My soul yearns, even faints,
   for the courts of the LORD;
my heart and my flesh cry out
   for the living God.
4 Blessed are those who dwell in your house;
   they are ever praising you.

 5 Blessed are those whose strength is in you,
   whose hearts are set on pilgrimage. 

10Better is one day in your courts
   than a thousand elsewhere;
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
   than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
11 For the LORD God is a sun and shield;
   the LORD bestows favor and honor;
no good thing does he withhold
   from those whose walk is blameless.

 12 LORD Almighty,
   blessed is the one who trusts in you.

And so I will trust in God Almighty.  Because He is worth my trust.  Because one day with Him for real is better than 1,000 days anywhere else (even Paris, France or anywhere in the Caribbean — though I would be willing to test that one out just to make sure).  Because He lives.  Because He withholds nothing from those who walk in His ways and really truly trust Him.  Even in the midst of stormy storms and crappy days.

Lord, may I not lose focus of that truth.


3 Thoughts on “Because Holy Feels Scary

  1. Hi Brianna! I LOVE LOVE LOVE how the Lord led me to your blog today. All I can say is Amen and AMEN! Like I really really like non-brokenness too…and lately I have just gone through one of those storms that have left me heartbroken and empty. And while I was tempted to fill the void with what feels comfortable (bitterness, anger, martinis, shopping), I bossed myself to keep asking God to fill it with Him. And for a while I didn’t FEEL that void filled, but I’d rather leave that emptiness there and wait for Him to fill it than fill it with the desires of my flesh. I can testify that I wouldn’t have it any other way… because my God does not give to me as the world gives. (John 14:27). I can’t wait because I know that not only will I be filled, I will be overflowing!

    Thank you for your blog Brianna. I am blessed. (hugs)

    Miss ya!

    ps. Love the new WordPress site!

  2. Bria,
    So glad we talked and I could add your site to my favorites! I really needed to hear this today….. even though it was written a short while back. I have been greatly challenged in my spirit lately with wanting to be comfortable rather than becoming more like Him. Thanks for your insightful and encouraging words! love ya

    • Talitha, I am so truly glad that I got to encourage you! Truly. Sounds like we’re both in the same spot with that comfort thing. It’s just so easy to forget that He’s really not interested in our comfortable like He is our holy. And… I loved talking today — you made my day. No joke. 🙂 Thanks for adding me to your faves. I’m honored. Love you.

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