And So Begins the Hunt

Brianna R Wasson
October 11, 2010

It was a difficult summer.

Having done battle with the deep and dark of my on-the-brink-emotions, my heart is learning to cling to the Giver of Life. The Only One Who can truly heal. I have flung to the balm of His Word through the ugly cries and the streaming tears. And, I believe, He is pulling me out. Healing me in His perfect way. With His perfectly chosen tools. And teaching me to sing the song He composed just for me.

But as I emerge on the other side, still struggling with the gravity that tries to hold me down, I find another battle lurking just ahead. It is the battle for truth. The one that tries to convince me that God only gives good gifts through the means of hard times. True that He does use suffering to grow us, no doubt. But that father of lies twists this truth and makes me forget that Love Himself is loving and kind, compassionate and full of grace.

And so, I think it’s time for me to start looking for 1,000 things that Ann Voskamp so beautifully encourages at her blog. I’ve become bogged down with life and struggles and battles. And I think I’ve lost the joy. Lord, help me to see Your gifts. Help me to be thankful through and through, for each one. Give me a heart of gratitude and thankfulness. Help me to know what it means to seek the Kingdom of God first and then to trust You to add all the things.

I’ve been afraid. And meloncholy about God. I’ve forgotten His goodness. And so I will begin the hunt for 1,000 things to be thankful for. And I will start with these…

the super bright orange tree I can see through my window
finding a picture that fits my blog
no stomach pain
shorts weather in the middle of October
a husband who is learning to dream
laughing with tears
teachers who love my kids
music that makes me want to write
clean sheets
the way leaves twirl as they fall
cold nights that need a warm blanket
healing