Because Holy Feels Scary

Brianna R Wasson
November 30, 2010

So I’m convinced that God is all about our holiness rather than our happiness. And for me that feels scary. Because of all the times that He uses brokenness to teach me and make me more like Him. Because I really, really like non-brokenness. And comfortable. And happy.

But I forgot that God’s design for me, no matter what hard stuff that might take me through, and His very presence, arewaaaay better that my happiest happy. So He reminded me.

How lovely is your dwelling place,

LORD Almighty!

2 My soul yearns, even faints,

for the courts of the LORD;

my heart and my flesh cry out

for the living God.

4 Blessed are those who dwell in your house;

they are ever praising you.

5 Blessed are those whose strength is in you,

whose hearts are set on pilgrimage.

10Better is one day in your courts

than a thousand elsewhere;

I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God

than dwell in the tents of the wicked.

11 For the LORD God is a sun and shield;

the LORD bestows favor and honor;

no good thing does he withhold

from those whose walk is blameless.

12 LORD Almighty,

blessed is the one who trusts in you.

And so I will trust in God Almighty. Because He is worth my trust. Because one day with Him for real is better than 1,000 days anywhere else (even Paris, France or anywhere in the Caribbean — though I would be willing to test that one out just to make sure). Because He lives. Because He withholds nothing from those who walk in His ways and really truly trust Him. Even in the midst of stormy storms and crappy days.

Lord, may I not lose focus of that truth.

Amen.